Pregnancy 1: Week 23

23 Weeks:

Symptoms: Puking and nausea were how this week started, constant peeing always, still need my naps daily when I can, and emotional roller coaster ahead!

Weight: This week I have hit just over 5 pounds gained from my pre-pregnancy weight.

Roller Coaster Begins: I started this week off a little more rough. First off I got pretty sick at night time again and none of the things that had worked for me to get rid of the nausea and stop puking would work. I even woke up in the morning the beginning of the week also feeling sick providing myself with a sprite and crackers breakfast for the first time in weeks!

Left-Out: I was then also upset because I felt like my husband and I were being excluded from something that I wanted to try and do and the logic was because I was pregnant and it may be too exhausting or difficult for me. Part of me was conflicted whether it was true concern for “my well being” while pregnant or just like I would be a distraction or hassle for people. I was pretty hurt by this. I can type here it is okay but the truth is I am still working on letting it go, which is probably harder to do with what happened later...see below.)

Baby Shower Planning: So this week also started with my mother in law trying to figure out more for the baby shower (Yes it is very early, but if she doesn’t prep she stresses...a lot!) and so since her, my sister in law, and Sarah were all three hosting together I went through and created a to-do list for each person. Now let me start out saying if someone offers to host a baby shower for you please don’t do this to them! Lol I however, talked to my MIL and openly said I would be helping them with as much as possible but I would love for it to be at her place as a grill out type setup where my FIL would grill (he has gotten pretty good at making the best cheeseburgers!) So, since I was also still helping and we had so many “hosts” involved creating a to-do list for each of us DEFINITELY already is making this all so much easier and something I can quickly knock out.

So I setup a timetable for my to do list for myself so I would get through everything on time but realized since the party isn’t for another 2 months (almost exactly) I really have plenty of time. However, my MIL wants to go shopping for the party at the end of this week/beginning of next week so I wanted to get started. I went to the store and bought all of the supplies off of my list except stuff to make my cake (which I am making myself) and a prize I am making for the guys at the last minute. :)

However with this newfound, despite feeling sick, energy I scrubbed my kitchen (literally the backsplash and under everything) and then started working on some of the party favors/prizes. No spoilers right now but in 2 months I will do a post that shares pictures of these super cute full items! I will share this sneak peek….1 prize is a jar of Bertie Botts Every Flavor Beans (did I mention this is of course a semi-HP inspired party but we are also making sure that it truly says baby boy shower, not HP party like our halloween parties and such). Also another prize (in the picture) are “Nailed It” nail kits.

Cook-Out: Last minute Tomek and I decided to go join my GM & GD at family’s house for a cook-out! It was nice to be included in this and fun to see everyone. Kinsie, is also pregnant (so is her sister Bailee- we went to her shower a couple weeks ago). Seriously everyone is pregnant right now haha. Kinsie is expecting a little girl, Emeryson and Bailee a boy, Keegan.

Mother’s Day: So this Sunday was mother’s day. To say it was an emotional one might be an understatement! I was really hit hard by not being able to share it with my grandma for the first time ever! So I know I was already struggling. I also had my MIL build up mother’s day repeatedly to me that this was my first mother’s day. I didn’t really count it that way as I am pregnant but I don’t have a baby I am caring for right now or had. However, with it being built up so much I got pretty excited. We already had a mother’s day gift for my MIL but I went ahead and ordered her a Babcia gift as well (since it is her 1st gma’s day via her logic lol). So when she came to pick up her pup Tomek and I walked out to give her her gifts. He naturally got distracted and was talking to his dad while I gave his mom her gifts.

I said happy mother’s day and gave them to her. She told me, “Yeah to you too I guess. I thought about getting you something but figured your not my mom so I don’t have to right.” I definitely felt very uncomfortable but just explained that Tomek was getting me new swing cushions as a gift. (Which he did check out this swing...It is so comfy I love it! I loved my old swing but the cushions were toast so new cushions and it is even better!!).

But I really got emotional the next couple days. I felt depressed, low, and hurt because even though she meant nothing by it I felt like it was a birthday of mine all over again. Where I became super excited for it like something special was going to happen and then the 1 person who made me feel that way chose to do nothing. So long story short I will definitely consider next year to be my 1st mother’s day as I initially intended, and I will be able to have little Patrick in my arms!

After feeling really stuck in that rut Tomek was super sweet. He got me a new SSD and Microsoft for my computer, I cleaned up the office, and so we are able to spend time on our computers together (working on finding a game to play together again too!)

Though I am still struggling a bit to move on, probably expounded upon by pregnancy but still real emotions, I went out to lunch with my MIL and sister in law like we used to and then we went shopping for the baby shower. We were so stoked we were able to find almost all of the items we needed! I am now working on just focusing on more positives the best I can. Starting to walk more often and doing my prenatal yoga is helping me to have a more positive vibe, also going outside on my swing reading has been great. :)

Also Tomek knows how to make every moment special...even a simple lunch at Steak & Shake!

Plus we are almost done with Patrick’s baby nursery! I added a few other small touches like this light switch cover! :)